I can hardly watch movies anymore
because any amount of feeling
is too much to bear.
It’s difficult to read fiction
because I connect too deeply to characters.
Feelings flood in and wash away
my own feelings of security.
These things reach down to the depths
and pull the rug from beneath my feet.
I cannot stand on the quicksand ground
without a sense of anxiety and dread.
If I used to be able to consume to escape
now I must create to escape.